Knocked Back Down, Again

Every my life starts to improve, it falls apart again.

Although I really hate writing negative posts, I just want to let anyone who's been trying to contact me know why I haven't responded. And in hope that someone out there has some good advice...

I've been working like crazy on a new panty auction, trying to get it up as soon as possible. I got pretty caught up in making this auction as cool as possible - here's a little preview:

As you all know, I put a TON of effort into my auctions (why I get so pissed when I find other sellers ripping me off, but that's a subject for another time). Since I've been off ebanned for a while, I wanted this auction to be particularly awesome. I've spent the past four or five days editing photos, editing text, and even made my first .gif!

(Again, just a preview!)

I really wanted to get this auction posted...and even stayed up for almost two days straight working on it!

Here's the problem...

At the gallery, three of our roommates moved out. We were not given a full month to find replacements. And got stuck with the bill.

After a long struggle to find new roommates, I was overjoyed when my "friend," let's call her "Marie," decided to take the final room two weeks ago. 

(Photo added to keep your attention!)

I've been friends with Marie for about three years - but didn't know she was in an abusive relationship. Clearly, I wanted to get her out of her apartment and into mine as soon as possible! She was slated to move in on Friday.

A few hours ago, I got an email from Marie. Not only has she decided not to move in, but refuses to pay rent for this month. I won't state her exact excuse, but I will say it's an offensive lie, if she'd signed a lease, would classify as discrimination.

Of course, she "loves all of us and hopes we can stay friends."

 (Arbitrary photo from my first panty-selling days.)

But blocked all of us on Facebook and refuses our calls. 

Of course, I'm still creating my new auction...and still filling orders! I'm determined to keep working, despite this setback, and not fall into another depressed spell!

But I feel so betrayed! I'd post new photos but a.) I've got to get back to work and b.) I've been crying for hours! 

What I'm wondering...

Does anyone know if there's any legal recourse we can take? Small claims court? Public aid?

Any advice MUCH appreciated! I'm taking a shower and getting back to work...hoping to post this auction tonight, get to my emails, and investigate a discrimination lawsuit!

Keep your fingers crossed...

It's going to be a long night!

Back to Business!

I'm whipping up a quick post today because it's getting late and I've got a LOT of catching up to do tomorrow morning!

Updates, rapid fire - 

1.) Reconciled with boyfriend (no longer sad!)
2.) Bought much-needed tripod (quicker photos!)
3.) Rented room in apartment (one more to go!)


The final guests just left our gallery and I'm exhausted from five days of stress and insomnia. And it shows...

Acne.


So lame.


I'm used to going to working til 6,7,8am and hoping to get to bed early tonight, therefore allowing me to finally catch up on the multitude of panty projects and upcoming art shows that fell into neglect this week. 


Tomorrow starts with a long morning of returning emails, then fixing my printer (it'll be nice to be awake during Canon's customer service hours), and crafting packages. 


It's going to be a looooooong day...


Since I've been moping in pajamas for days, I slipped on my yellow thong to get back in the spirit -

It's actually sort of comfortable!

Deliberate Cruelty, Depression, and Forgiveness...

As a few of you know, I've been pretty down, lately.

 

I'm trying to get past it, but life has been nothing short of awful for the past two weeks. Right after getting over the flu, I got hit with the death of an old friend. The night before the funeral, my (now former, I guess) boyfriend and I got in a gigantic fight.

I won't go into detail, but it was as bad as you can imagine. We're currently not speaking. At the time, I was furious and dreaming up various revenge schemes. 

I really wanted to slam him for being an abusive, hypocritical, ungrateful, undeserving jerk (I'll stop now). He and I bicker a lot, but this time he went too far. 

I'm not cool with disrespectful behavior out of anyone. But purposefully playing off known insecurities is particularly low.

My favorite work of literature is Tennessee Williams' Streetcar Named Desire. Blanche Du Bois - here she is played by one of my the always incredible Vivien Leigh:

And, in the original stage production, by Jessica Tandy:

One of Blanche's finest quotes from the play:

"Some things are not forgivable. Deliberate cruelty is not forgivable. It is the one unforgivable thing in my opinion, and the one thing of which I have never, never been guilty." 

I've been living by that philosophy since I first read the play at fourteen years old. And, yes, what [anonymous person] did qualifies as deliberate cruelty. 

But, I can't stand strife and quarreling.

Ever since [unnamed former beau] stormed out, I haven't been able get out of bed. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I'd rather prove his point ("you'll come crawling back to two days") and end the fight, myself. 


It's better than waiting weeks (or months) for an apology.

Obviously, I haven't felt very sexy, lately. I did, however, swallow my pride and and whip out the cam for some nudes. It sort of made me feel a little better...for five minutes.


After falling behind on my orders, and subjecting everyone to the world's most depressing rant, consider these images my own form of apology.

I just realized I may have posted the world's saddest nude photos.

I do, however, promise to be back to my normal self as soon as humanly possible...


I guarantee!